Unexpected

Me: "I love tiny things!"
Mom: "Be careful saying that to your boyfriend."
...

Me + The Hush Sound

me: cutest video of the hush sound ever!
they are in an apple store!
bahaha
oh that's really freaky. i remember that performance - it was in denver WHILE I WAS IN FT COLLINS COLORADO. aaaaah #soclose
Ashley: awww! That's precious!
I'm sorry you missed out on seeing them.
two years ago.
me: thanks.
well i'd seen them 2 days before that performance.
so i guess it was okay.

Eve and the Apple

(A playlist about temptation.)

1. I Like It - Enrique Iglesias ft. Pitbull
your girlfriend's out of town and you're all alone...

2. Hold it Against Me - Britney Spears
you feel like paradise, and I need a vacation tonight

3. Dance With Me - The Old 97s

4. Love You Much Better - The Hush Sound
I can love you much better, if you can't see it you're blind

5. 7 Things - Miley Cyrus
you like me, you love her*

6. You Keep Me Hangin' On - Glee cast
let me get over you like you've gotten over me

7. Dirty Little Secret - All-American Rejects
I go around a time or two, just to waste my time with you

8. Don't Cha - Pussycat Dolls
don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me?

9. Dirty Picture - Taio Cruz ft. Ke$ha
will you play along if I take a dirty picture?

10. Trouble for Me - Britney Spears
you and me were a disaster, and you're only a danger to me

11. Thnks Fr Th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy
thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great

12. Folkin' Around - Panic at the Disco
allow me to exaggerate a memory or two

13. Take My Hand - The Cab ft. Cassadee from Hey Monday
this is ending, but we will get through eventually

14. He's a Tramp - Cast of Disney's On the Record
yes, even I have got it pretty bad

15. Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
so come over here and tell me what I wanna hear.

16. Honey - The Hush Sound
Honey, honey, you were the first one...

17. Cuidate - La Oreja de Van Gogh
mis recuerdos de alguna cancion son hoy mi premio de consolacion...

*not the actual lyrics, but it's how I learned it back when I first heard it.

Swinging: A Retrospective

Beautiful brand-new spring day. This called for, of course, going to the park and pumping my legs off.

Which is not an uncommon occurence for me. I guess just not as common as it used to be...

I can't swing without reliving...

May 2008. Chasing a broken dream across Shawnee Mission, L and I searching for a park with two free swings, R painfully along for the ride.

August 2008. Bitching about the park's sand yet refusing an offer to be carried across it. Swinging for fun rather than for therapy. Returning the next day for the latter purpose.

Fall 2008. Swinging with A and L with me always singing "7 things." Just being Miley, pretty much. (Except for the time we went swinging hungover. BAD IDEA.)

your hair, your eyes, your old Levis, when we kiss I'm hypnotized

Thrilling me through

I am remarkably adept at lying to myself.

It's a talent, really.

I ride off into my delusional sunset (apologies to Sara Bareilles) and convince myself of whatever it is. I am perfectly aware of the truth*; I just refuse to acknowledge it, stubbornly clinging to my lovely little fiction.

*He doesn't love you, he's just passing the time

What can I say? It's nice while it lasts.

so he said, would it be all right if we just sat and talked for a little while,
if in exchange for your time i give you this smile?
and she said, that's okay, as long as you can make a promise not to break my little heart
and leave me all alone in the summer

Favorite Song: A Ridiculously Cheesy Metaphor

You know those old survey memes? (Maybe they're still around, it's just that my social circle's outgrown them.) They always ask for your favorite song. And for years I never had a favorite song.

I had songs I liked a lot. Songs that made me happy. I'd come up with something to answer the question.

But I had yet to encounter THE song.

The first time I heard The Hush Sound's "Honey" was a youtube video of a live performance of an early version of the song--not even the same lyrics that appear on the recording. Yet even with the imperfect first impression, my heart stirred and I've never been the same.



What I'm saying is, I never had a favorite song before I discovered "Honey." There were songs that were quite nice, songs I could tell myself were my favorite, but I knew in my heart something better was out there.

My metaphor is, of course, to romance. To the notion of finding "the one." You know you're supposed to have a favorite song (partner), and you find something that works for a while and that you quite like, but when you finally encounter that ONE song, you know in your heart that it's different from anything that came before and anything you'll ever encounter again. That it was worth the wait. That it was okay to go years without a favorite song, because nothing fits you more perfectly.

Appendix:
Evidence of my ongoing love affair with "Honey:"
January 2009
March 2009
June 2009
July 2009
November 2010
January 2011

Foreshadowing

Second weekend together with her new long-distance beau. They embrace on the couch in a borrowed living room. Her new favorite album, the soundtrack to her summer, fills the air. She teasingly sings along from time to time. In the middle of summer. He smiles silently.

Until the last track. He sings, I don't love you, I'm just passing the time.

He breaks up with her first thing in the morning.