Drama Queen Drive Home

a playlist. (and honestly I was more in the mood for it for my drive a couple weeks ago than I am now, I just hadn't quite finished it yet...)

1. "Homecoming," Hey Monday
I'm coming home, I wanna know, when all the leaves begin to fall, if I'm falling, falling apart for you

2. "You and I," Lady GaGa
It's been a long time since I came around, been a long time but I'm back in town, this time I'm not leaving without you

3. "...Baby One More Time," Britney Spears
my loneliness is killing me

4. "The Story of Us," Taylor Swift

I used to think that one day we'd tell the story of us, how we met and the sparks flew instantly

5. "I Cant Do it Alone," 3OH!3

'cause god damn it, I can't do it alone

6. "Kansas City," Sneaky Sound System
somebody in Kansas City loves me

7. "Rolling in the Deep," Adele
I can't help feeling we could have had it all

8. "Molasses," The Hush Sound

you say there's something better, but tonight you know you'll never find it

9. "The One that Got Away," Katy Perry

in another life, I could be your girl, we'd keep all our promises, be us against the world

10. "Super Bass," Nicki Minaj
excuse me, you're a hell of a guy*

11. "Take My Hand," The Cab ft. Cassadee from Hey Monday
this is ending, but we will get through eventually

12. "Over Thinking," Relient K
one more guy/girl cliche, I know now you're just in the way of me and my dream come true

13. "Cold Shoulders," Gold Motel

some things end without trying, we turn away without warning

14. "Littlest Things," Lily Allen
sometimes I wish we could just pretend, if only for one weekend

15. "Breakfast at Tiffany's," Deep Blue Something

it's plain to see we're over, and I hate when things are over when so much is left undone

16. "Inside Out," Britney Spears
even if we couldn't last forever, baby, you know what I want right now.

17. "Goodbye to You," Michelle Branch
I want you, but I'm not giving in this time.

*This song might seem a little out of place, but that lyric played over and over and over in my head during the 3-hour breakup conversation.

Eve and the Apple

(A playlist about temptation.)

1. I Like It - Enrique Iglesias ft. Pitbull
your girlfriend's out of town and you're all alone...

2. Hold it Against Me - Britney Spears
you feel like paradise, and I need a vacation tonight

3. Dance With Me - The Old 97s

4. Love You Much Better - The Hush Sound
I can love you much better, if you can't see it you're blind

5. 7 Things - Miley Cyrus
you like me, you love her*

6. You Keep Me Hangin' On - Glee cast
let me get over you like you've gotten over me

7. Dirty Little Secret - All-American Rejects
I go around a time or two, just to waste my time with you

8. Don't Cha - Pussycat Dolls
don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me?

9. Dirty Picture - Taio Cruz ft. Ke$ha
will you play along if I take a dirty picture?

10. Trouble for Me - Britney Spears
you and me were a disaster, and you're only a danger to me

11. Thnks Fr Th Mmrs - Fall Out Boy
thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great

12. Folkin' Around - Panic at the Disco
allow me to exaggerate a memory or two

13. Take My Hand - The Cab ft. Cassadee from Hey Monday
this is ending, but we will get through eventually

14. He's a Tramp - Cast of Disney's On the Record
yes, even I have got it pretty bad

15. Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
so come over here and tell me what I wanna hear.

16. Honey - The Hush Sound
Honey, honey, you were the first one...

17. Cuidate - La Oreja de Van Gogh
mis recuerdos de alguna cancion son hoy mi premio de consolacion...

*not the actual lyrics, but it's how I learned it back when I first heard it.

I Got Your Crazy

you put on quite a show, really had me going

new playlist time!
this one is called:

I Got Your Crazy
or, The Other Woman Scorned
(or, Angry Girl Playlist 2.0)

and it goes out to Ben, Mr. Honeywell, and anyone else who's ever made "the other woman" out of an honest woman only to screw her over.

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Why Did I Ever Like You - Pink
(I'd still have all my hate for you intact even if I lost everything)

Fighter - Christina Aguilera
(made my skin a little bit thicker, makes me that much smarter)

Womanizer - Britney Spears
(you've got me going, you're oh so charming, but i can't do it)

Kiss N Tell - Ke$ha
(I can find someone way hotter, with a bigger......)

Don't Cha - Pussycat Dolls
(don't cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?)

Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne
(and hell yeah I'm the motherfucking princess)

Love You Much Better - The Hush Sound
(one day soon I'm gonna grab you by the collar and kiss you all I want)

Again Again - Lady Gaga
(you've got a lot, a lot of nerve coming here)

Smile - Lily Allen
(see you messed up my mental health, I was quite unwell)

7 Things - Miley Cyrus
(you like me, you love her*)

Never Again - Kelly Clarkson
(I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well.)

Take a Bow - Rihanna
(don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not)

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*not the actual lyric, I realize, but it's how I learned it and how I hear it.

moment of weakness

3 months later, and what do I do?
I make a playlist.
I mean--
there are worse things I could do. (although THAT song's not on the playlist.)

it is, if nothing else, entertainingly genre-boggling! (which is why I'm sharing it!)
I now present:

November Nostalgia

1. Teenage Dream - Katy Perry
I finally found you, my missing puzzle piece--I'm complete

2. Kansas City - Sneaky Sound System
somebody in Kansas City loves me

3. Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz feat. Ludacris
if you fall for me, I'm not easy to please

4. Honey - The Hush Sound
you are my loooooooove, you are my love [very precise spelling]

5. No One Else on Earth - Wynonna Judd
how did you get to me? . . . no one could love me like you

6. Hurricane - The Hush Sound
you're the finest thing that I've done, the hurricane I'll never outrun

7. When the Day Met the Night - Panic at the Disco
he was just hanging around and he fell in love, in the middle of summer

8. Little Miss Obsessive - Ashlee Simpson
then I guess we're really over, so come over, I'm not over it

9. ...Baby One More Time - Britney Spears
my loneliness is killing me, I must confess I still believe

10. Get Back - Demi Lovato
I wanna get back to the old days when the phone would ring and I knew it was you

11. Gotta Go My Own Way - High School Musical 2
I just don't belong here, I hope you understand

12. Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie
I hope you know that this has nothing to do with you

13. Do it Again - The Beach Boys
I've been thinkin' 'bout all the places we surfed and danced and all the faces we miss so let's get back together and do it again


Don't worry, Friends-who-care-about-me. My heart wants to. My body certainly wants to. My head even presents a pretty good case. But whatever part of me is above all of that knows it can't happen and won't let it happen.